it is oredi 1 am in the morn...
i can't sleep..
i feel like a LOSER..
i can give advices,suggestions n stuff...
but the irony thing is..
i can't make decisions...
urghh...i hate it k..
i want to have the abilty to make my own decisions..
urghh...i can make but i will
i will think of the consquences and 'what-happen-next' phenomena
urghhh..how..help..

maybe i am the one getting myself into all this shit...maybe?
but its not shit
its just dat i cannot make or do wat i really want...
well i in dikir but wen got dikir prac its just dat something will be goin on or had been goin on..
for example today
i got plans...
den yesterday nite..kak fana smsed..
there will be dikir..
i want to go..but my partner has quit..
urghh..
den hafiz,lydia,ash,shahida planned to go for movie..
how???

wait on top of that... i am sick
my cough is still on..
been coughing..
ibu sae better stay at home..
how??
where shud i go?

anyway go dikir oso fun..go movie oso fun..how??
anyway i just checked their agenda..
and the BayanA Azali are performing for women nite at NUS dis june..cool kan..
but how..hope wen i sleep..my dream will give the answer..

or maybe i am just not fit in that BayanA...
no lah..u see..we are all from all diff sch..
den i will be starting poly soon...
i will definetly gonna join Rp MCS..den thay oso got their own activities rite
den how am i gonna split myself?
how??
how??