emotionally breakdown

great..
i have deleting watever i have typed for atleast three times..
urghh
just feeling a lil bit stupid..
maybe due to de time of the month.

i feeling
so mixed up..and in mins i find myself in tears..
YA ALLAH, tenangkan hati
haiz..

urghh
i am simply feeling honoured and the same time digusted n irritated n watsoever...
urghh
but things gonna be orite rite?
i miss my besties..
somtime these make me feel uneasy.
i love dem but it just hard for me to xpress it or even show it.
i dun dare to labe any other frens as besties coz it takes a long time for me to really be open n share whatever is it my heart
i am soory babes.
wait.. i am notin without my buddies n good frens
i love al de people in de werld a lot ok i mean real lots k.
i just dunno..i am scared that i will be unfair in dealing my time for my special people in m life.
i am so me rite.
always pretending to be ok but only god noe wat is it in my heart
every beats tells a story
and every story lies a feelings
a feeling that may not be expressed.
haiz..super sucky rite?
haha
now
i believe i have learnt to take things eays n never hold on to anything
dats de reason i have nutin to share
sorry babe esp hakin n fatimah, they share with me but i dun.
i am sorry..i lead a super stinky boring life, dat oni ends with a smile n begin with a smile.

i make one more new fren.thanks ehh fatin for introducing to me
name hanz..haha..
no baby hanz ar..
haha..
i am de mother, fatin is the sister and hanz which is practiclly older than us is the baby..
ironic rite..
haha
they have been calling me ibu for the past few days.
i have silly chats with dem.
haha..my children..

i love fatimah n hakin..
haha..
to all my tagiies..i miss u all too.thanks for tagging sorry..i never reply tau..
i seriusly not in de situation to balas.
okie i am so sellfish. i am sorry.