before i even starts.
i would like to warn readers that dis gonna be a damn mixed emotion post.
i dun feel great today.seriously am.
so bear wit my cries.

but i would first re-cap on de great happenings in my life so far.
okie.i skipped school halfway before my mind and doul was not totally in class.
so we decide to skipped class.yeap my whole group.
who else if not my sweet girlfrens, yanti, shaff and shimah:)
we were practically laughing our arse off during second meeting and half of third meeting.
and den i left school with nadiah.yeap de sweet lil small girl.deiya.
yeap she oso left coz she wasnt feeling unwell.her heart was throbbing in pain- dat what she claim.hehe.
so we make out way to toa payoh to meet another sexy girlfren.razan.yeap,she wasnt in school so we decided to have lucnh at fork and spoon.and there goes our normal gossip and bitching moment.OPPS.
and yeah, there was dis once, a girl was hypher-ventilating in class cause i think she ran and had asthma.i assume. so i was like stunned can?and i was telling deiya dat i cant wait to shout out 'somebeody!call 995!' and deiya cant wait to shout 'somebody help me'.haha
okie den we went. errr.KBOX at toa payoh.
yeap.karoake babe.haha.we danced and ssing and shout our hearts out.like hell yeah lah.
its worth my money even thou there is a huge hole in my pocket now.but dis day will always be remembered babe!!minus de terryfying ending.shant elaborate.read deiya's blog to noe more.

and today,
bismuth was in RP.
so we soemhow had a 'gig' like in de afternoon.
i must say they have big and great talent.
and
we had RPMCG WELCOME TEA.
but no tea served!
okeii might say it was nice and great.
especially de spontaneous performance(skit) created by razan, 'arifah, nadiah and naq.
IT WAS AN AWESOME 10 MINS SHOW!
and i swear i was moved to tears.
and i wasnt in any mood like since after UT.
so dat explains my sulking face in pic and trying my nest to deny any photo taken.
but zul managed to snap stupid pics of de pentas karyawan.damn and how i hope it is not in mcg sharepoint*crossfingers*
so went hunting razan's mom handbag.it was a failure coz she dint get anything at last.
so no worries babes.u still make my day with ur silly gestures:)

okie now de damn rejected detested part of me.
today,somehow, somewhat, something had made me feell like i am a loser.
something that made me drained
something that make me feel like i am a burden
i just have to say and keeping saying sorry for hurting you.
and i am sorry that i had to be dat bitch.
i am seriuosly feeling ratherly low.
and to people that are constantly around me, i just have to thank you for being here and lending me a shoulder, i tot i have learnt and grown and moved, but seem i was left behind.
i wish i could be a better person.




i think i had enough.
i had to learnt to stop running.
stop chasing.
stop loving.....