her state of mind

emotionally overwhelmed?jaded?sober?fiery angst?upset?melancholy?...
or simply said,clueless about describing the state of mind and feelings..
weird isn't it? how something that is closely related to you seems to be too difficult to be express in words or worst sort it right.

how could something simple be so complicated?

making decisions is something i would try to work on..
succumbing to the dark side apparently sound more interesting than being the nice and demure and everything nice. somehow, being myself, doesn't bring me anywhere..a little spice of evil and rebel is all i need to end of my ouh-so-no-innocent nineteen.

sitting back and reminscing, thinking of all those things i should have done and should have avoided. i have left nothing but memories, and there is too much that i have learn and there is a only a little room of regret. getting myself trapped in these 'non-existence' emotional dillema which is almost equivalent to being in a state of emotionally distubed is very disturbing.

sleepless night period is over,
i am not gonna make myself emotionally drained anymore.






okie i promise a proper update real soon.hehe